The protagonist of the story that I and the small Leilei. He said that we from now to 5 days after the day on the way out of chat, and then after five days to determine whether to join the future. He said that, when this time is a test of our feelings. And then my tears began to flow down. Because, I'm scared, so scared, 5 days after he would leave me alone in the dark of night, will do me.
when I do not know how to retain him, I asked him, you know my legs, how has it so? I looked at him, pointing a finger at himself in the leg. He said miscellaneous get the thing? Before the eyes of love and not a little simple. More there is frustration and irritability, and tired, cold. I do not know what the other he suddenly become so strange to me blind. That night, like a black magic, will we have to send a point of no return, we do not know how to face. He began to back, like I did not accept, like him, I am far away, then do not dare to look at me. Then he crouched in front of me, buried his head between his knees and kept apologizing to me. His every sorry, I do not have the courage to hear, such as consuming all my pride and self-esteem .
know this sounds like what I'm sorry? Yes, he told me to pull off. there is not even a little sadness, or a little mercy. but I know he still likes me, but I just do not know that he is How to separate yourself suddenly become particularly sophisticated and mature, I hardly know him. because he was cruel to me is that people become overwhelmed.
when he came to me, I really thought he was at the front and then hold, hold me tight, but this is only my opinion only. He looked disgusted at the time of my appearance, my arm around his shoulder standing next to him,UGG boots, he was indifferent and cold I asked you to do? I do have to be intimidated, but I looked up my little Leilei was actually the cheek, and my heart beat a bit. because my little Leilei, I always spoil my little Leilei always very, very good to me. At this point the music ringing ears is GO ON GIRL!!! I know I must continue to hold our happiness in order to withstand this test. But his words and his thoughts to me I was haunted, he said to me many times, he said, I think a lot, I do not think we fit. we are just friends thing. I looked at him, his eyes look to elsewhere. He admitted that he obviously liked me, but we can not continue, but he will and I just friends! I am determined to say, do not. Do not. He looked at me helplessly, and then he wanted to to leave. I never knew the story we actually met here is so difficult the question, why are we? we started well before starting. I began to get the life you want, and now have to lose the.
if I said that if we can really overcome the difficulties. I believe that we must be the God chosen lover. So I promised to accept our feelings of the test, I would like to I knew he was serious.
just now, I am very calm and knocked in our story here, because I think we should learn which of these difficulties of love growing up. I began to enjoy our remaining 5 days. I 5 days Limian will hold good in our hard-won bond, hold We have had the story, even if I have to guess 5 days later he will leave. So, in this 5 days where I have to learn to be strong as soon as possible and habits of the day without him. For me, five days are so dear to it! And small Leilei days with only the last 5 days. Were true, our love is a time limit, I wish you could cherish in front of all of this, can go to try to keep our story,UGG boots cheap, but I know what you think is correct.
Maybe later I got to understand your ideas, perhaps the only way is a good way for us both. If, as you might think, I want you in this life never liked me, so that our story would not be so heartbroken, I would not be so helpless, you would not be so tired.
Sorry to keep you so tired. Look, I did not use. Never done anything for you, to bring you only pain.
there when I heard a small Leilei said the note was written after his own, I do not have the language. But I decided this note as a souvenir. Just because it is our part of the story. Seem silly, it seems that I am the only person in the story to continue doing our work.
we just stood there for a long time, and he handled me with a fall from the bag, as before. Then I let him to leave. My leg to let me open eyes, I looked at him away, very reluctantly, I really lost it. He left, I have to use long time to forget about this boy? I have no idea, leg pain was so painful that I stopped. By the way, when I feel him near, I started laughing. Just as we used to have a simple life without any impurities. I started to miss. I do not want to admit the rest of the day we really only 5 days.
This is our house the first day 5 the light of day, I learned that his real thoughts. He likes me, and I have to just friends. I was afraid of the disappeared, because we only left with only 5 days together. His words haunted my nerves. He said not to us. He said, you're overqualified. He said, I do not you think so well. He said, I let you down. He said that, we come on. He said, you want some of my bad thing. He says is not Mandarin, but the Sichuan dialect. The former he would not like that. In the end, this is how? What is blocking us?
God, I beg you. Let us have a happy bar. I know I am not a lucky boy, but I was still alive so insensitive, still feel that they are God's children, with an unknown lucky. I want to get this kind of life long, long time, I really do not want to lose. Although I realized his mistake too late, but finally now I have not completely lost him. I beg you, let us return to the past as good, because we decided to work together towards the future.
2010.10.12. 23:53
is now at 23:49 on 13 October. Bit by bit the next day. The day of the rest of us there are 3 days. Only 3 days.
day we have no classes today, the morning had been sleeping until 11 o'clock until the beginning of the bed. For the afternoon to go to listen to a few classes. I remember the night I had a dream seems to be, or about me and the small Leilei's. Forget hi or sad. However, for now, these are not important. Importantly, I want to cherish the days with him now. At dinner time, monitor call me go first, because my feet hurt to go slow. Squad leader told me that the door towards a new canteen, turn right and then saw the sign Luo chicken inside North Korea go. After I agreed to go out. I walk slowly, very quiet campus, see the blocks of buildings, is a small Leilei and I first met to go. Sunset some quivering, according to my heart even more cold. I'm out of school, see me and stayed small Leilei night and walked. My heart was carried away, and I want to see urgent kiss kiss him and me that night to the place where the ground is the piece of lawn, raised high, I remember. I walked forward, remember to do take out. That night, he also bought a lot of oranges, the results of broken plastic fell to the ground all rotten, and that scene I Xiangqilaijiu amused. Walked, wanted a lot. Ourselves to him, he can feel it? Worth it? I've made him the possibility to reject me, so I began to see the opening. If he left, for me, not necessarily a new challenge, I can be my heart falling from height, and then mending. I felt as if I am not afraid, but I'm not sure why this time I feel cold, I can not help but bind tightly to my clothes, the sky began to rain. Sun hanging in the distance, where the looming not angry. I waited a long time no see traces of them keep coming until it was turtle sister called me, I know I'm in the wrong direction. From the moment the out of school are wrong. As if it indicates that he and I, we, is a mistake from the beginning. The same as his mouth, that we were really, really is not appropriate. But, I do not know why God wants us to meet, and then after such a tangled and sorry, perhaps we should restore calm. Only God he knows it? Not everyone can be relieved those memorable things.
carved up some things, is indelible.
later, eat dinner, I went to the A3, saw the long-lost friends, we talked and laughed, they care about me makes me feel good to have them alive. Then I went to the interview. Think of such a busy time, make me forget some little things and small Leilei. However, after eating hot pot, turtle sister and I sat there, I leaned against her shoulder, speaking with me yesterday to pull off a small Leilei, tears stayed. Walking on the road, I really do not want to talk, I really feel the feelings between us is his burden, he must hate me. Necessarily. Small Leilei been a long time not taken the initiative to call me or send text messages. I really think this is a most frightening for me to horror movies. After the interview, my phone still nothing happened. I blankly looked at holding a cell phone in the bathroom trying to get, only to find there is no consciousness of ice hand. I am constantly keep in mind the temperature drop. I still play on the phone. He went up, the sound finally Mandarin, but also much more gentle than yesterday. We made an appointment, or the old place. So I walked over too, he was already there. When I saw him standing there waiting for me when I was very happy. He looked me up the stairs, and then held out his hand and helped me. We talked for a day, he asked me how and interview today how, as before. Then we went again football bulletin board, he said they acquired the game. I say give him to buy the water, he quit, talk about good is 5 days. Surprised a moment my heart. Not so many words. But, I said he does not look old and happy, he said no. With the touch of mouth and then slanting arc, very light, but I see it. I laughed. So long, we have for so long, and this time finally saw his smile, though very light. But it is a feeling that we progress. When we stood under the street light chat, I told him about the things bit by bit, but he said he would not see. Does not matter, so no place to place stories, and time limits of love, let anyone see that baptism is a soul and comfort. If he saw that his guilt and helplessness do not know how many more. Forget it. 5 days will soon be over, and then he will leave. I will return to my world, we have their own lives. Then we will forget each other. Days will still be blue. I do not have too many worries and taken into account. All fever. As long as he wanted to do these things, I only expense. In short, I will work hard to keep our story, will not let myself regret. Then we started walking around my bedroom in a circle. I walked in the back, he would not like before, I always take into account, it will not take the initiative to care about me, as if he were buried in the hearts of all, like him like my things. He buried it up, then another life, mood and posture. I feel strange even look at life. His dead body of some worse than me, more serious. Because,UGG boots clearance, at least, at least bad of me is a limit, there are exports. And he, no exports. His numerous small bubbles evil breed, through my wounds, and rolled over the struggle, and then let me pain to say thanks.
him in front of the back, a reflection of a certain arc reminds me of my love, it must be so unknown that no one understood. I followed behind, watching the gap between us become bigger, bigger, like a giant to fall into the abyss after the light to no. He continued to walk forward, not even look back at me. Now this situation, I finally heard him say those words: Dear, is not I die, you will not blink under the eyes of it? So really do not care about it? We will also have a future? He can bear to do this to me. A few days ago, and his sweet talk my ear is still not dissipated, but now he was telling me the other words. I really did not expect and had never expected. Small Leilei is a bad, bad bad. I finally went to the bedroom, he urgently wanted to leave. I do not know what else to say let him stay, or give me a hug and stability. He first, the throngs of people left me. Under the dim lights, at a loss. I heard my head was not far from a bird flying over, it seems very lonely, it can not find something it wants. I looked up and saw that a long time, but also back to the bedroom. I remember on the road before a small Leilei told me he said that we should take advantage of now. I said, is that you do not grasp. He said, I do not mean this matter. What is before us. I only know what is in front of me my English Band all had finished, and then in accordance with the instructions to complete the mother's things, then I can really get the life you want.
tonight,UGG shoes, he said in Mandarin. I also saw his long-lost smile. Thank you for a small Leilei. All this seems to have been sufficient. After 5 days no matter what your choice, my memory is the memory of our beautiful enough. I do not blame you. Because I have paid for our story I should do, if this still can not get our story continues, I can only say that we, and by chance no points. I did my best, do the rest to God. I hope you meet a very concerned very concerned about you, and you are fit, makes you proud, there really know how to take care of your girls.
in life does not seem to imagine is so clean, at least we can fight. As we want, and effort. Desperately.
night. Bit by bit, we have lots to talk about the composition of the bitterness and unforgettable. God has blessed those who have been selected lovers, hope they make love.
2010.10.14 1:06
bit of the third day today. Small Leilei did not come.
I am a person sitting in the football field, to call him, first not answer. Then pick up something to say busy, could not come, that day came. I hung up the phone, a man sat there for a long time. He said on the phone, anyway, nothing to say to come out tomorrow thing.
I heard these words, the meaning clear enough. I stay here any use? I smoked cigarettes, 520, and then beam a good hair untied. I remember he asked me, why not tie up your hair, your hair styled? So today, I burst bundle up. Zhi Shi does not expect, he even did not come for the appointment. QQ said, I feel, I should stop, and not what I want to give up, I had to stop. Okay. Perhaps bit by bit, there will not be composed of 5 days. I began to hate him, hate him so loose with no backbone. Perhaps, we are not appropriate, not why.
bit by bit, the third day, there is no story. I am the only one under the dim lights and then wait for the appearance of a person can go to sleep. Then no longer alone are no longer cold. However, the situation now, I only go back and do their own. As before, as have many of the same secret, heartless life. Like never been hurt, there is no separation or broken. Containing a pair of boys do not want any contact with the cold face, and still attract the attention of countless people, but as not. I gradually began to find his past that so smart, do not know the perfume behind the confusion and undefined meaning. The black sky as in the past, no stars and no moon. Okay, okay, it'll be all right, not so many words, can not communicate, commitment and casually date unintentional, there are many things should not do all happened. That he, the future really worrying, always say love a girl, and then suddenly he casually left, who can not save him like me again, and second only this time, but also because I was too soft-hearted.
Anyway, I'm still the same me. Not much change. All this, I want to learn to bear with the bear slowly, slowly left the Federation to resolve the scars in my mind the place, so I continue to grow and love the feel of the world will be even more authenticity, and the contradictions of the world .
the weather starts to cool. Apparently did not have a picture, suddenly Jingxian to use this pair of eyes to look really give us unforgettable and heart of the story.
2010.10.15 0:04
October 15, bit by bit, the fourth day.
I did not contact him all day, but still think of him. Noon because of his race. I decided to go. Although his own mind completely wrapped up, said good to see him try to avoid, but until now, or not. I did not eat lunch at noon, and after class will organize and prepare for the bedroom, and then I went to the football field, and saw him still in practice, I quickly walked away. Silently like a thief quietly lingered outside the court. I think that started to go in after the game. Then I went to the basketball court to pass the time. Stop sweating on the basketball court to see some friends, I hold the phone for a small Leilei was thinking to see me, will not and what is special feelings? Or for a break that he would not see Taiwan to find me? Then, I slowly lengthy way until the football field. At this time, there is a guy to wear their uniforms out, I quickly stopped, then stood still, his back to him. I think they must know that I am of these boys, I do not like them talking about me. So I stopped, like a fool standing in there. I pretend to play with the phone. Waiting for the boys walked away. Did not expect was that he followed through a few of the boys came out dressed in their uniforms, and I did not realize the seriousness, they seem to race over, I felt my spine some cold, I never felt so cold before. I know, small Leilei be passed by me, and in just that time. There is no breathing, he seems to like that before. The distance between us is so close and not touch vague. I hold the phone in the hand, shaking without any effort. He did not call me, say hello: Hello. No. Can you imagine it? Easily as he traveled from me. But he was my little Leilei ah, that amusing to me and very intimate little Leilei ah, that said small Leilei want my life ah, that says to only like my little Leilei ah. My heart is not breathing. I looked away for a group of boys, and I also like to recognize him easily. His back and slowly forward with. He must have seen me standing on the football field, where the iron door, his back to them from the inside out. He must have recognized my backpack, that every time I have a date with him carrying, and he helped me keep the bag Beibao Dai Li. He knew me, he knows, he knows! I cried, cried so aggrieved. In the end is how is it? Who can tell me that we in the end where the cards? In the end I was doing wrong? Why do I even have a chance to apologize yet? Why he did not want to give me a chance? Why he does not believe that we will be happy? Why do I always seem to be abandoned and left behind? I beg you, beg you, beg you. Tell me, okay?
later night, I did not give him a call. I have to get yourself very busy, and friends and chat, eat, go to forget the evening, and his contract. Because I still believe that if I do not give him a call, he would probably have to contact me, because last night he said, out tomorrow it! However, he still did not contact me, a little voice at all. My phone is terrible silence. In fact, he does not know if he called me, I must, must go, no matter where, I would. Now, more than he hates me, ah, he hated me. I could see, he even did not want to see me.
night, I smoked a cigarette, thinking about him. Also a star of the desire.
hope to see a boy, I love love him, and he also love love me, then we are very happy.
2010.10.16 02:10
now is October 16 fifty-three past ten p.m. Saturday.
bit by bit, the last day. Fifth day.
10 o'clock I was up quickly, and then went to eat breakfast sitting in front of the supermarket. Then came black, Wu side came. We went to eat breakfast in the supermarket entrance. Sunshine particularly good, but my heart cold, I am missing is someone to love. I know that today he would not take the initiative to call me. Suddenly, I saw the door on the way to go in the D3 group of people of their football team, then the distance, I recognized him people. They look just Ayala competition, he was off his coat, slung, or wearing a pair of blue soccer socks.
to my eyes never left before.
I always look miserable. Without any detour. This Thursday's class teacher or the classroom, reminds me of long ago, a small Leilei that my meal back. He asked the security of holding two bowls of rice a certain teacher is not here? The results of security let him enter. I really admire his intelligence, but also to say if it is not his to take care of, I must have been very bad, like now.
my breakfast in the mouth and chew it for a long time did not swallow. Because what Duzhe throat, so I can not swallow. I wanted to call, but courage. I do not want a stranger, do not. He was gone, disappeared. Later, I went to the stadium, the warm sun the earth is flatter is so sweet, I lay down, or that position, the first time to see him play the position. Listening to the distant cry of the other team and the football game with some kind of friction shoes and harmonious sound.
I imagined. Imagine it was him. I am actually more of a wish 用心去感受.
Yuan Shuai then in they come, that play must go to Dujiangyan scenic spot, while another shouted small way I eat. Concubines came back to me said, put the afternoon to talk about. The tortoise girl no one to accompany a person in the bedroom. At this time the game reached a climax, and I turned around and saw them running, sweat floated down. I really want to do it is with him, playing football. He once said, let me pay 5 dollars to, and he take me a lifetime. Then teach me to play ball. I remember we did this thing. That night, I put a friend kick the pigeons do not eat but he had just bought the football. In football, he and I, and his friends. Deng Pei their football night party, said he saw me in the play. That night, I am very happy. But I have not discovered that every time I date a small Leilei I are so so happy.
night, lonely with grief. I endured not give his phone, but still not under control. He did not take, has not. Over the past few hours later, he picked up. Said he went home, not school. He said come back and say, I thought I would and hope. Result, he said, to when the friends. He is, not to us. In fact, if you think about it, if he really liked me, do not care they fit this statement. I paused, and tears have left the next, and no one noticed. I said, you do not never liked me? His tone a little disdain over there, he said: how? ... ... ... ... ... .. I want to cry, but could not find any reason to keep him again. I remember times PE, I'm not happy, he looked out, down and asked me why I do not happy, said he saw me, as he is not happy. But now? He is not hate me to hate or even wanted to talk to me?? In my heart there is still some sort of attachment, I believe he will come back to me, and pet me. He do not want me, do not want me thoroughly. I began to panic, Huangde loss. Jing said that men are dogs, go there. I think my little Leilei is a dog, my dog. Now just do not listen, and over time will be good, necessarily. If the period of time, he really liked me, he is really moving to me, the heart, he will come back to me. I suddenly felt tired. Bedroom, put some things can be looked up saw. He sent me all the things people miss no limits.
amassing Later, a person sitting in basketball, we've turned the short interest, and I cry a person where that noise. Crying bitterly, but no one will come to care about me. No one. I am a man, after all, and in the past, has not changed. The only change is my attitude towards life. I came here after the change.
hang up before I asked him to come talk to me face to face said. My frustration will eventually move him, definitely. I would like to wait for him to come back, I should do,? I became not a little self-esteem. My tears in the day he left, so humble. TM Why you make me sad? TM you do not have this qualification. TM I really hate you now.
I do not love you. I will not let myself love you.
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